Because I haven't bothered to figure out how to get the photos off the borrowed camera I used during this year's Christmas, I'll regale you with images of years gone by.
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On Christmas Eve morning Matt and I went to have the 20 week ultrasound of our baby. While we were waiting for the ultrasound all of the sudden we realized that this pregnancy COULD be a boy. Even though we were so sure it wasn't. However, if it were a boy, we were not prepared with a name for him- and we'd never not had a name prepared going in to a 20 week ultrasound. We had settled on a girl's name so quickly that there seemed to be no other option. Right there, in a dimly lit room, in about thirty seconds Matt and I decided on a boys name- if we needed it. We knew we wouldn't. As we said the name out loud, Matt acknowledged that it felt good. I agreed. Knowing that we wouldn't need it.
We opted to have the gender be kept secret until we could watch the DVD with the kids on the next morning, on Christmas.
I definitely don't have any photos of that event, as I spent a good portion of the morning in tears about it. Matt and I were so sure this pregnancy was going to give us a little girl. I was heartbroken for a bit. I know there are those out there thinking that I should be grateful that I am pregnant and that's it's healthy. And I am. But there was a large part of my heart that was set on welcoming another baby girl. It isn't as though I didn't want a boy at all, I just really was aching for a girl. I had connected with this pregnancy as though it were a little girl. I felt like I'd lost... something.
That being said, I really am happy to be having a little boy. As I was trying to reconcile my brain and my heart with this news I watched my Parker playing so happily with a new toy. All the joy in the world lit up those eyes of his, he said something funny (I don't know what), and I melted a little bit. Having another boy will be wonderful! It'll be fun, and messy, and loud, and hysterical, and rough, and I can't wait for Parker to have a little buddy. He needs a little buddy.
5 comments:
It's always fun to look at pictures from previous years! And congrats on baby boy Quinney, I can picture Leah being a cute "mommy" to the baby and Parker being the big brother that has someone to wrestle with [at least in a couple years:)].
Melanie I understand. I needed pink and ribbons so badly after 2 boys and a 6 year wait for Anna. Sometimes I hurt for it. I prayed Anna here maybe out of order and it certainly was not as fun for Anna as she waited through 2 great little brothers and 6 years for her twin Emily!!! No wonder she was a jock in high school!
Sorry Melanie that was me Becky. I couldnt figure our how to make and identity
Aw! So happy for Parker! It is really fun to have two boys so close in age. And it's a lot of crazy too. You can do it! Otherwise the Lord wouldn't have set things this way.
I know what you mean about wanting another girl, especially when you've already had one of each. They're so different.
First of all, those pictures were so fun to look at. I love all of the extended McGee clan!! Reading about your boy news took me back to the ultrasound I had with Austin when they told me at the beginning that it was a girl so I spent the next 15 minutes of the ultrasound planning her entire life (complete with hand-me-downs from Kristi because she was born at the same time of year - what a practical bonus!). At the very end of the ultrasound, the tech said, "wait . . ." and sprung the news that my girl was a boy. It was so weird and surprisingly disapointing! It took me a couple days to make the adjustment. Soon Awesome Austin was born and what a blessing he has been. Your new little rough-houser will be the perfect fit for your family and for your heart. Leah, on the other hand, might stay mad for awhile, haha. Love you!
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